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sleep.

i feel like a slug. i got back monday night, slept at 1am, woke up at 3pm the next day. tuesday night i fall asleep around midnight, wake up at 345am and can't go back to sleep and just stay up for the rest of the day. last night mui and i fell asleep around 1130am when i was waiting for a phone call, woke up at 12 to answer the phone, fell back asleep with the lights on, woke up at 1am. then i got up, drank some coke, turned the lights off, moved from the couch to the mattress, and didn't fall asleep until around 3am and woke up sporadically when mui was getting ready for work. then i finally got off of my mattress at 1145am. talk about not being in a real sleep cycle and i was STILL exhausted when i finally got up this morning. mui is awesome though, she left me a piece of butter toast drenched with honey and a cup of coffee tea on the table for me. it was cold, but still made a good breakfast.

now i am slowly wasting my day away....all flights to hawai'i are terrible terrible terrible but flights to socal look alright. maybe i should clean my room.

quelling, squashing, burying, suppressing, destroying, shanking, stomping, can't quite erase/feelings.

last night's fries with cheese whiz at miller's deli was so freakin good, we ate the entire thing. i don't know if it was so much the cheese whiz (which i don't think i've ever had in my entire life) but the fries, because they were thin and crispy and not soft at all. perfect! their macaroni salad was tasty because there was slight sweet taste in the background, which might sound weird but it was good. almost as good as my all time favorite macaroni salad, which is the ones you can pick up at foodland in hawaii. i wish i didn't leave my apple turnover at mui's. dammit! i want to eat it!

i slept so well last night. it's not without saying i didn't sleep the whole night through because i didn't, as usual. but my mui blanket felt so good, heavy, soft, warm. sometimes i hate sleeping there on monday nights because it's garbage day on her street on tuesday mornings, so sometimes the trucks are incredibly loud and noisy and always wake me up. they still woke me up today, but the noise was not as jarring.

tomorrow i get to snowboard all day and the day after that and then two more days of work and then i will be a bum. sitting in a chair makes me want a massage every single day. i hate sitting at a desk, it's confining and it's not what i want in life.

but. i do love free products!

daylight savings time

Las night I dreamt Nikki Six from Motley Crue was texting me and telling me he wanted to hang out, which is strange because in real life I think he looks really terrible. I woke up refreshed and thought, huh, it looks really light out. Then I checked my phone and realized it was 8 and I had to be at work at 8:30.

Shit.

Turns out when I changed the time on my phone last night at 11:30 pm to 12:30, I also forgot that it was supposed to be 12:30 AM. Soooo smart.

I made it on time though, and that's all that matters.

I made a new blog, this is it, I have a bunch of lists I want to post, so that should be fun.